The Inevitable

The trouble with being able to know some people on a level that they do not know themselves is that you can see what is ahead for them before they do. A lover that is separated from me by a large distance called tonight. He shared something he thought would made me laugh. He had gotten laid by some chick he picked up in a bar.

He was shocked when I said "Did you buy a condom on the way to the room?"
" No!!!! You know I was not prepared."
"I know"
" You have been begging for bareback for months"
" Did you use a condom"
"She had one"
"Really"
"Did she insist you use it?"
" Gee, I thought you would laugh... "
"I am happy for you that you got some and you needed it"
"I am worried that drinking, big breasts, being in the dog house at home, and your preference for bareback combined in making you careless"...
"I am not stupid"
" I said careless... you, my love, are impulsive and into the moment.. "

"Well, you were going to fix me up with a hooker"
"Yes, I would have if you were willing to pay"
" Sex with one of my friends who would insist on safe practices is much safer for you than a quickie with a drunk woman picked up from a bar."
" I can't believe you would say that sex with a hooker is safer"
" You are so full of it that you don't realize that many are professional women who are not going to let a drunken man take chances with their health."
" A woman who is drunk may not be able to maintain her resolve that you use a condom"
" We were not drunk"
"But I have never done that before."
" I can not believe it happened."

The truth is I knew one day he would have a one night stand. I know he will have more of them in the future. His daily calls of yearning for sex with someone besides his wife was a big clue. I was not surprised it happened the night it did. He knew I was going to be playing with my new toy with hubby. He was horny and upset about the miles separating us. I am concerned because he had rarely used a condom during his single years. He has told me how lucky he got during those years that he did not acquire an STD. During this same conversation he again requested that when we get together that it be skin to skin with no rubber separating us. We are close on many levels and it is hard to tell him no...

I know his wife. If he picked up anything that is even rarely transmitted through sexual contact he will pay through hell. Not that life with her is a bed of roses now. I insisted on safe sex with him. He loved the sex with me but hated the rain coat. He has been begging for encores without the raincoat ever since. But that was over a year ago and for him a fading memory. Even with testing there is always a chance of something that was not caught or not even tested for coming to light down the road. I have looked for a playmate for him on some dating sites. But most women do not want to play with married men. He is a hard working guy who needs the TLC of a loving woman as much as the fuck.

I can play with others only if I follow the rules of safe sex. But my lover and good friend is a very impulsive, fun, into the moment guy. He will call me later when unforeseen consequences occur for quick painless resolutions to his problems. I can only pray he was in the arms and pussy of a woman who stood her ground and insisted on using her condom.

If so, Here is to good sex because he frankly did enjoy it and said it did him good. I told him I was happy for him but I think he thought I would laugh. I may have been wrong to voice my concern about the play being safe. But in my heart I know that he needed the nonjudgmental intimacy even more than the fuck if only for a moment... I hope she enjoyed it as much as he did..