Desire Its Cascading Flaming Passion to a trickling flicker

I remember when his code lighting up my cell phone was enough to start my clit to humming. When I thought I needed to hear his voice each morning to make my day complete. When phone sex would be intense. I would never pass on the opportunity to hear his sexy voice and listen to his erotic desires for us. The flame of our passion for each other burned through my rollover minutes in less than a year. Morning and night we consumed cell phone time in erotic conversation and other talk. We knew just what to say to arouse each other and knew the imagery that would encourage the other over the orgasmic edge.

I remember one morning when our spouses were working. We both came together and and then spent time afterward in intimate discussion and loving words. He said that he never gets sweet after talk with his wife after sex. My loving and sexy words were a new experience. I realized that I take those moments of cuddles and intimate sweet nothings for granted. Yes, hubby goes into white sleep quickly; but not before a few minutes of wonderful intimacy following sex. So, I am spoiled.

So, this morning I woke up and realized that things have changed and I might be the one responsible. My lover still desires me. He left passionate voice mail messages this week. He called to tell me he could be mine all evening the other night and was disappointed to hear I had plans. Normally, I would be making excuses to shop etc. So I could call and talk to him in my car or in the store etc.. Last night I cuddled next to hubby and went to sleep. Yes, his availability was bad timing and I was ill. But that would not have stopped me this time last year. Has the time difference and distance taken its toll? His voice still turns me on but I no longer make talking to him the height of my day. My passion is a flicker that can still flame up. But it nothing like the cascading tidal wave of passion that I shared with him for over a year. My thoughts when he mentioned he may be out overnight was I hope that any woman he picks up at the casino is worth his many oral talents. The thought of which still can put my clit on overdrive. Only one other lover in my life has ever been as talented as him and I have not seen the other lover in over 20 years.

It has been over a year since we were together. We are time zones and several thousand miles apart. We both have new job responsibilities and have had major lifestyle changes in the past year. Lately, I have called and his kids have answered the phone which never happen before. His wife thinks I am a professional consultant in the field of her husband. He has called me in front of her before when he did need assistance with a work issue. But it is harder for me to know when he is alone and can talk freely. He no longer takes the time to read email. Which is why he called to let me know his availability the other night. It is why I should have taken the bait and called him part of me chastises. Those opportunities are getting fewer and fewer. But part of me did not care enough to get out of bed and leave the house or just go downstairs and call him after all in the house were asleep. I was ill with stomach pains and comfortable snuggling in bed half naked with hubby but is that an excuse? Now, part of me feels guilty and the other realizes that the desire level has changed to a different stage in the relationship cycle.

I know if it works out for me and my lover to have some time together that the flame can be fueled to its previous passion level. But for now my energy is not so focused on this lover. It may be time to put the relationship on simmer till we can be together again.

The flame of passion that heats up my life is that of my husband. It is a flaming with more heat and passion each day. It flames up, then flickers and goes through a variety of cycles in any given week. Life, kids, and exhaustion can take its toll too. Some days it is like a cascading waterfall of passion and others a flickering low tide. But, more and more we are becoming red hot embers consistently and our love making is reflecting the passion between us. The flames of my desire should make this summer a multi-orgasmic one.